Lost & Confused

Thanks soooo much for the comment, and I know that all that you say is true...it's just so hard, and recently I found out that the other female is 7 1/2 months meaning there was some infidelity in my relationship...Hurt? I could scream right now...it's my first child and it was planned, we were supposed to be married as of Sept 5th and although Im not so mad that the wedding didnt happen considering the current circumstances I am very upset that I know have to share that aspect of him as well. regrets...I have lots of them but I cant change any of it so Im forced to move forward. Im just happy it was a baby on the way in result instead of something much bigger like AIDS. Unfortunately much like your friend I feel like I dont want and dont need him in our lives. I honestly feel like I never want him to see her (as bad as that may sound). The other girl has been trying to contact me and I have no words for her, she knew about me...scandulous, but she wants to talk about our kids and come to some happy medium where we can all live blissfully...Not a chance, was my solution to such idiotic notions. Tell me if Im wrong. I don't want to pretend not even for the kids that one big happy family is a great idea. I dont want to ever see her son and she defiently wont have to worry about seeing my daughter. As far as Im concerned they dont even exist and my daughter defiently doesnt have an older brother on the way. It would be so much different if it was after the break-up but it wasnt and in essence she plotted on my family and now they both have what the deserve. Unfortunately for her after me he still didnt want to be with her, so she's no better off than i am, only she has 2 other kids by two other men to think of as well. Triflyn! I feel like he has taken my whole world away from me and I just dont know how to get it back...Im a Bio major studying to be an OB/GYN and I have a substantial amount of time left, only I hadn't planned on working and I hadn't planned on being a single mother. Lost & Confused? NO... Mad as Hell

I'm very sorry that you have to go through this pregnancy by yourself....But at the same time just be strong and faithfull...I have a close friend that went through the same thing except that he walked out as soon as he found out she was expecting.  He even asked her to have an abortion.  Once the baby came along he then wanted to be a part of there lives but she felt that it was to late and did it all on her own.  Baby Martin is now 2years old and the happiest baby ever.  My friend tells me that it is the best thing that has ever happen to her.  I truely hope that things work out for you.  You and baby Zoe deserve the best this world has to offer and just remember she is all yours....no one can take her from you.  Hope to talk to ya soon and hope these little words helped you gain some strenght...take care, Maddy