so its been about a month since i wrote last (seems like alot longer) but since my last blog we have moved into a 14 foot camper and have our 75 pound chocolate lab and our 8 week old kitty and now are looking at having to go back to my parents house with my step dad who i still havent forgiven and dont know if i can or maby i just dont want to he could have killed my baby and i dont think that forgivable to put sutch a tiny life at risk any how i only have 7 weeks left and now am getting scared and my "fiance" keeps looking at porn wich i have always had a problem with because it makes me feel not good enough and my doctor is pushing me to get my tubes tied and i dont know if i want to 4 babies by c section makes the uterous weak and i understand that but im only 22 what if in 5 years i want another baby and cant and i wont have13000 bucks (that is todays prices) to get them untied so im not sure but on the other hand it would be nice to not ever have to worry about a condom again (im allergic to ALL birth control) but im not sure my fiance eaven cries whaen we talk about it sorry its so long i just needed to vent i guess 
thanks for listening 
