Hi everyone. Hope you all had a good weekend.
Sad to say that there seems to be no end to my pain. Lastnight I was told by the mother of the baby we were to adopt that she'd changed her mind. Yeah. I cried so much that I went to bed with a migraine. It's heartbreaking to know that you've tried everything and there seems to be no light at the end of the tunnel. Well she said that she'd prayed about it and that it was revealed to her that she was to keep her baby. I can't argue with that. God alone knows why. Maybe this will only make me stronger. So I am back to square one. I am praying that all this hurt goes away and continue to trust in my God cause I know that my ways are not His ways and that I just have to be patient.
Two weeks after the last day of period, my period came again but this time it was stronger and was clotting alot. I didn't have that for my last period and found it strange because I would normally have it. Anyway I think today is the last day of my period again. I think my husband wants to try again but I told him to let it be. I don't want to keep thinking about getting pregnant and to be disappointed again. If and when it happens, it will be a surprise and gift from God long awaited for and well deserved.
So yes this is my current situation. For those who are trying to conceive, I wish you all the best and please continue to share your experiences with us.
Tags: Adoption
