Trying to Conceive | Pregnant or all in my head?????

I am new to this site so bare with me.. I need some advice from anyone who has been pregnant recently or who already has children.. I am losing my mind at this point so here goes.. Well I have been pregnant 6 times since I was 17 and none of them made it.. I was pregnant at the end of 2008 with twins.. I had a missed miscarriage with them..  Missed miscarriage (when the baby stops developing but you still have all positive signs of pregnancy).. My miscarriage was in january of 2009, which by the way this was the longest pregnancy I ever had.. I have not been able to get pregnant since then.. So now it's february 2010 and I am having such horrible signs of pregnancy but already had one negative pg test.. My symptoms of pregnancy include feeling extremely nauseous, hightened sense of smell, feeling dizzy and lightheaded, sore nipples (sorry if TMI!), extreme fatigue with insomnia.. I love to drink coffee but yesterday while I drank my coffee every sip I took I felt more and more sick.. I ended up throwing up to the point where my throat felt like it was on fire (sorry again if TMI!).. I got my usual 8hrs of sleep last night but feel so tired as if I have already been awake for 24hrs.. Now the thing that I need to share is when I was pregnant in 2008 they found abnormal cells on my cervix and had to have this surgery called a colpo (where they scrape the cells off the cervix to see if they are cancerous).. I do have pre-cancerous cells..  I had a normal period nov. 1st, 2009 which lasted the normal 7 days.. 7 days after I stopped bleeding I started again.. The bleeding went on for a few days and then all I had was spotting. That spotting lasted until Jan. 21st, 2010.. I didn't even think I would ovulate, so once I started getting all these pregnancy symptoms it made me worried b/c of my previous miscarriages and the cells on my cervix.. I am so sorry this is a very personal and long post but who knows, there might be someone out there who has had to go through it.. Any advice, tips or opinions would be very helpful.. Thanks for taking the time to read this..

im sorry for all the heart break you have been thru but for now just try to relax and take a test that way you can get to the doc asap other than that i cant say much im sorry i cant be of more help good luck sweety

Sorry to hear about your losses.  I also have abnormal cells in my cervix.  My obgyn ended up freezing my cells and once she did that, my pap test results showed normal.

You could still get pregnant even if you have abnormal cells.  The best advice I could give you is have your OBGYN do a blood test to confirm pregnancy or not.  That is the best way to tell.

Best of Luck to you.  Lots of baby dust.

Hi lilbean

Really sorry to hear that things have been so bad.  I also had a couple of missed miscarriages and totally understand how your feeling. However hang on in there as I now have a beautiful boy and about to start trying to concieve for my second child. 

How are you feeling now?

Sending big hugs ((((()))))