Hi Rebecca. I'm not really sure why I'm "on here" I'm not a Mom nor am I pregnant (at least I don't really think I am) Anyway, point of the story is that I was really moved by your situation. I just wanted to say that, in answer to your question, "no, you are most definitely not a bad person." I know we women get nervous and anxious over every action we've taken- and for good reason, we care. I think this is a wonderful time to recognize that perhaps you could make healthier choices for both yourself and potential children. But hey, we all make choices we'd like to change. And I hope you know that you have a heavenly father who absolutely adores you. I have come to know Jesus Christ- not in an obscure, distant way, but in a living relationship. He died for our forgiveness- so that we have a way to be redeemed. Maybe you could read Romans 10:9-11, 2 Corinthians 5:15, and Revelation 3:20. Sometimes we hear misinterpretations of God's word that talk about condemnation for any little mis-step but in these verses you'll find the truth of Christ's compassion and his extension of mercy and grace. I truly pray that you will find a lasting peace in Christ. I'm sorry to hear you're in such a state of guilt but I really respect that you didn't try to hide your decisions and have owned up to it so that you can seek the best care if, indeed, you are pregnant. WHATEVER the outcome is, literally, whatever, Christ loves and adores you. Read the scriptures. I will be praying for you daily. Also, I just read a beautiful book called "Redeemed." I think all women should read it. Every blessing to you, tirzah
