I am 22 years old. I have been so sure about my fertility when i had 2 kids from my first marriage. I had a boy and a girl. but the marriage didn't work out just because of a third party. My ex husband was a soldier and found out that he made a 16 year old pregnant. I was 14 years old when i had my daughter and then i was 16 when i had my son. I was very young and very naive. I didn't listen to my parents because i thought what i was feeling for this man was for real and is forever. but i guess i was wrong. Turns out that he got another woman pregnant. I couldn't face it so i left. He didn't let me have my children, thinking that he might get back running after him. But as much it hurts. i had to face the truth that i didn't have any job to support my children. So I agreed thinking that i am going to get them back. My family disowned me after i decided to be with this man. My world was in a mess but i had to find a job in an internet cafe. then i began looking up through people in the online dating services and then i met the love of my life. He might be way to older than me but like they said, "age doesn't matter". I was so fed up with younger men that i thought i was better off with men who are older and into settling down. He is 1 year older than my father but it has never been like that. He makes me happy and feel complete. He respects me and believes in me. We met in person then we fell in love for the first time. And then i decided to move to another country just to be with him. Then after some months we have been living together. we have tried to conceive a baby. after so many months of trying. I was still not pregnant. He never had any kids before and already he claimed that he had a low sperm count. so we decided to take fertility treatments. It was a very frustrating experience for me. All the money spent, the time injecting my self with hormone stuff that i felt so battered. But i held on and hoping to God that we will be able to have our own baby and so i would be able to share this wonderful experience to this man that i love that he has never felt before. After the months of fertility treatments, consultations, ultrasound scans, and finally the egg retrieval was scheduled. we waited for a couple of days then received a call that they have collected 15 eggs from me but only 5 eggs were fertilized. It was better than nothing i guess. Then came the fresh embryo transfer (FET). So after that we were so excited about it. we had to wait 14 days to be able to check out if we were pregnant or not. I had lots of difficulties that moment. I didn't take it easy though but i wasn't doing any hard stuff. then 3 days before we were supposed to take the pregnancy test. I had some mild spotting. I was worried that i had to call the doctor immediately if this normal. they said it can be implantation bleeding. So i had to take it that it was like that. I was all the time praying and hoping that i am pregnant and all the time thinking that it is gonna happen. then the 14th day arrive. I woke up so early to ensure that i have enough HCG in my urine. I was excited and praying and hoping... Sadly, It was only one line meaning. It was negative. I still couldn't believe it myself. but i was frustrated and i was thinking over and over again to myself that it can't be happening to me! I am supposed to be so fertile and i don't have any problems at all of getting pregnant. It was so easier to get pregnant back then that i was avoiding it before and now i wanted it so much i couldn't have it. I couldn't tell the man that i love.. but he has to know. He was just taking it like "oh well" . He had tried this before and it never worked for him. In the next day i got my heavy period which even put me in so much stress that i was blaming myself all the time. I was crying so much and thinking what i had done wrong that i couldn't get pregnant. Months past.. we finally decided to take a break but i was so keen to do it again because this was very important to me. We had 4 embryos left frozen. I had to get on a train for 600kms just to go to that fertility clinic. and it always ended up that the time for frozen embryo transfer was on weekends.. still trying to keep on achieving this goal as much as i can. April 2008. Finally the dates were exactly the right moment. I had to travel by train to get there and stayed for a month. Finally, i had my frozen embryo transfer appointment. I tried to calm myself down. not being too excited about it. Even though i had to go through it alone. I did manage to. So after so many days of waiting, i tried to keep myself from thinking about the whole procedure and enjoy life as it is.. then the 14th day came.. i wasn't so sure if i wanted to take the pregnancy test so i waited for another day.. next day came.. I went to the bathroom.. sat on the the toilet and opened one pack of pregnancy test. and then peed on it.. i held my breath, thinking..."must be negative again!".. then i closed my eyes and waited.. and waited.... then opened them.. i saw TWO LINES! i was pregnant! i was so excited that i called the love of my life immediately.. he couldn't even believe it himself. we were so happy... months past now... after so many ultrasounds and check ups... It was quite an experience for me but i am happy of the result. I AM 26 WEEKS PREGNANT NOW! and i'm due on January 15,2009. I am really hoping for the best. We are expecting a BOY!
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