So I think I am in denial that I am pregnant! My partner and I only decided to start trying at the end of January. I got pregnant immediately! It's amazing how that worked out! I still can't believe I am pregnant! I keep thinking to myself my goodness our baby is growing inside there... There's really a baby in there!!! I don't think it has fully sank in yet which makes no sense considering I'm always in the bathroom peeing. My tummy always gets upset in the evening usually... I have had 2 positive home pregnancy tests and my first prenatal appointment is set up already. However, its not for a month! I have had a previous miscarriage so I'm scared something may happen before then. But, I know that if something happens its not in my control cuz i have done everything right by my baby. I have completely stopped smoking and eating real healthy everyday... so if something happens I know I did everything I could to nourish my little baby. Knowing I am doing everything in my power to keep from ahving another miscarriage I'm still scared to go to that appointment on the 6th and be told my baby is not alive. I pray that my baby will be ok and that I will get to see my little sweet baby in an ultrasound on the 6th with his or her beating heart and tiny little half formed body.... I am so excited about being a mommy for the first time and I want it so badly! It's been 5 years since I miscarried so I think I have a higher chance of having a successful pregnancy this time through. If anyone reads this please pray for our baby to stay healthy and make through all this growing so that his or her mama and daddy can hold them and love them for the holidays :) im due right before thankgiving :) what a blessing to be thankful for isnt it? I am beyond happy and excited!!!! but my goodness to think how tiny our baby is right now and inside me and part of me still... it is amazing to me!!!! my goodness how miraculous!!!!
